Man oh man, was I out of my zone.  After two hours of softball on Sunday and my two mile jog today, my muscles are kicking me saying “why did you wait so long to work us?”

I’m sorry little muscles.  I forgot to stay in charge.

Do you remember Herman’s Head?  It was that Fox network sitcom from the early 90’s.  Funny but crude. The main character lived his regular boring life while the rest of us got to enjoy the menagerie of colorful characters residing in his head. Well, I feel like Herman a lot of the time. Just the simple puppet along for the ride.

And…well…let’s just say that for the past five weeks someone other than the boot camp instructor has been running the show up there. Not quite Pizza the Hut, but someone only slightly less greasy.

Today I let that dude’s cheese burn and hit the pavement for a “back to basics” two mile run.

It wasn’t that easy. Not that I anticipated the first day back after a month off to feel good, but maybe I was hoping that it wouldn’t feel quite as bad.  I’m exaggerating as I always do, however I wasn’t exactly jumping at the option of an extra mile, or doing multiple reps of caft lifts on my way up the stairs. But I did stick it out even though my breathing was off and my legs were tired. Good news is that the toe didn’t hurt one bit so it looks like I’m back in business.  Woohoo.  Thanks body, you came through for me again.

So tonight, I’m resting my achy bones. Tomorrow I’d like to try a yoga DVD my good friend Heather sent me.  Thanks gal!  She’s getting married in two months. I’m in her wedding party. Another bites the dust!

I jest. She’s probably doing better with her bride-to-be-workouts than I am with my crazy-California-wanderer ones, so I may soon be eating that dust. See you soon guys!

I’ve been such a lazy blogger this week. Actually, I’ve been somewhat of a lazy everything. I’ve spent so much energy playing nurse to The All-Star and staying ahead of the house-hold chores, I haven’t had much left to “focus on my path.” I’m making sure we eat right. That’s a must, especially when healing is concerned. But the one thing I haven’t been very good about is exercise. I’m learning that even the slightest tread off course in this department gets me wacky. Time is get back on it!

The toe injury really set me back. It certainly put an end to my 30 day challenge and it set the tone for a lazy February. But yesterday I played a double-header of softball and it was all a-ok. Today I feel ready to get back on the jogging trail.

I can now see how easy it is to get trapped in an every day lounging around lifestyle. And I’m really feeling the effects of my inertia. It’s becoming even more difficult to wake up in the morning, I have less energy during the day, I lack motivation. At first I thought it was because I was healing, then I thought it was because I was helping someone else heal. I now realize that it’s not over-work, but the “under-worked” that’s got me feeling so low. It would appear that my body needs exercise to keep itself at optimal capacity. Imagine that! I could give you a lecture on circulation and metabolism, brain waves and kidney function. But that would be boring, and I’m sure you get the idea. Bottom line is, at least for me, I gotta keep on movin’ in order for this body to wanna keep on movin’.

The beauty of the path to wellness is that there are no dead-ends.  Each of our paths have many cross-roads and each day we’re given the right to choose our direction. Today I realized how much sluggishness depresses me, and how easily melancholy makes me apathetic. It’s a spiral I can’t let myself get caught up in. I know, I know, simple to say but harder to do. So tomorrow it’s two miles or bust! No more excuses. I’m ready to get that blood pumping again! Wish me luck!

What do you do to stay motivated??

Well, today is Day 30 of my fitness challenge.  I am ashamed to admit that only the first 14 days of fitness were completed.  The last 16 I have spent tending to my broken toe, which is much better, by the way.  I have, however, had a feeling of anxiousness and grief these last two weeks over my fitness failure.  I really was enjoying the challenge, no kidding.  Sure I didn’t always want to exercise but the physical benefits I gained from each activity were immeasurable and I feel the difference without it.   I do plan to continue or re-start my fitness challenge as soon as my toe allows me to run again, but maybe with a little less intensity and obligation.  After all, the goal was to introduce more fitness into my life.  And the last thing that I want is to undo the careful consideration I’ve taken these last two weeks, in regards to my toe, that is.

Now that I’ve admitted my humbling failure, time to look at the positives and move forward, right?  So, what were my successes in the first month of 2010.  First of all, I took the initiative to embark on a challenge.  I didn’t know if I would be able to physically manage a jogging regime, which I am happy to report I was doing well with.  I paid attention to my dietary needs, which is an important life-long habit to which I’m addicted.  I also took the opportunity to examine myself both mentally and emotionally and have continued to grow as a woman and a health care professional.

That being said, it would seem that my challenge wasn’t a failure after all.  Sure I didn’t exercise for 16 out of the 30 days.  But I continued to challenge myself to be a happy, healthier, well-rounded individual, one who learns from her experiences and uses them to strive forward. And really that was the true point.  And maybe I wanted to prove, a little, to myself that I could be some work-out wonder whose physical abilities were only surpassed by her charm and beauty. I’m kidding.  But truthfully, I was using it to feel good about myself.  Having just turned 30 and feeling the need to experience the saga of aging with a spectacular achievement that would validate my youth, I decided to run.  Was I running away?  Hardly, I like to look at it as running forward.  So in truth, I feel good about what I accomplished. I hope you find the same satisfaction from all of your challenges. We prosper from that which makes us stronger.

The true goal is always growth!

As part of a “saving money, being productive, bettering one’s self” effort, The All-Star and I have opted to see how long we can go without cable.  Meaning, no TV at the LB apartment.  We were always complaining that we don’t have enough time, yet seemed to find hours free for boob tube guilty pleasures.  So I fully support the idea.  It’s a box of evil I tell you!  One that that will no longer tempt me, however, now the TV just sits there, its blank black screen mocking me, reminding me I must use my wits to fill my spare time and that my life is more important than those depicted on Bravo.  It’s not fair!  Especially since there’s a “Godzilla” outside.  (Yes, there are calling the winter storm that is hitting Southern California “Godzilla.”  Jeez.  Good thing I don’t have “The News” to get me caught up in that one.)  And my toe is still broken (actually I think it’s only a bad sprain, but regardless.)  I can’t jump around doing whatever hooky aerobic dance-off I find to fulfill my Challenge obligations.  I’m just sitting here, in silence, in a cold apartment, with a monsoon outside, alone.  Exciting isn’t it?  I’m afraid to say it but thank goodness for the internet…  Am I still on? Phew.

So, what to do? I should take this opportunity to teach something important and profound.  Hmm..  How about just interesting…

First I’d like to say that I’m still totally bummed out about the Challenge being put on hold.  I know that I said I would start lifting weights, which I did, on Monday.  But yesterday and today I’m so worn out and tired from gimping around on this injured toe that I really don’t feel it smart to exert unnecessary energy that I could be saving to heal my body just so I don’t feel like a failure.  So I’m opting to take it easy.  It’s what I would tell my patients.

Speaking of patients, and this toe, I want to talk a little bit about Chinese Medicine.  After discussing some herbal treatment options with the smartest herb guy I know, I started to think about the channels that run to the toe and how this injury may be causing more than just toe pain.  As you may, or may not know, the “science” of acupuncture is all about this “energy” called Qi which runs throughout our bodies on “channels” called Meridians.  There are twelve major Meridians, (plus two Extra-ordinary Meridians), which are connected to twelve major organ systems, and these organs systems are what govern our body’s functions.  Confused?  It took me 4 years of a Master’s Degree to come up with that line, so I don’t expect it to seem crystal clear.  What you should understand is that the acupuncture points which we stimulate with the needles are along these meridians and are used to treat the associated organs.

So let’s think about the big toe for a minute, the one that I have injured.  There are two major meridians that run to the big toe.  One is that of the Spleen and the other the Liver.  Spleen’s element is Earth.  It transforms and transports the food we eat, contains the blood within the vessels, controls muscles and the four limbs and houses thought.  Typical symptoms of Spleen pathology are fatigue, nausea, lack of appetite, sluggish bowels or loose stools, foggy headed-ness and muscle weakness (many of these symptoms I have been experiencing since my injury.) The Liver’s element is Wood.   It stores the blood, controls the sinews, ensures the smooth flow of Qi, houses the (Ethereal) soul and controls dreams.  Students of Chinese Medicine most often associate the Liver with emotional frustration and irritability which I will admit I have also been experiencing lately, along with some dreams that would scare the socks of your grandmother.

Now, on the hands and feet are points that we refer to as Shu-Transporting Points.  It is at these points that the Qi of the organs flows closest to the surface and is most easily manipulated.  There are some practitioners that rely solely on these points to treat their patients and find them to be extremely effective for almost any ailment.  The very intelligent Dr. Richard Tan has developed an entire method (called The Balance Method) using only these points.

It is my hypothesis that, because I now have significant bruising on the Shu-Transporting Points of both the Spleen and the Liver Meridians, and that the energy there is so easily manipulated, that the energy of the associated organs is stagnating, leading to the symptoms that I described above, especially the nausea, foggy headed-ness, fatigue and bad dreams.  It sounds complex but it’s really quite simple.  If you can treat pathology by influencing the flow the Qi at these points, couldn’t an interruption in that flow cause pathology?   Therefore, it is my recommendation as a Licensed Acupuncturist and Practitioner of Chinese Medicine that I use this rainy week opportunity to take a load off, administer herbs both internally and topically to move qi and blood in order to return balance to my compromised system.

If any of this sounds interesting to you, I highly recommend Between Heaven and Earth by Harriet Beinfield.  It’s a great beginner guide to Chinese Medicine and an good read.

Oh yeah, and here’s this week’s How to Win Friends and Influence People flashcard principle…

“Be a Good Listener”

Yesterday started off like any other day. I went for my run. Took a shorter route because I was still feeling tired. Cramped again but not for long. Was extra cautious not to sprain my ankle (I was wary, it being Day 13 and all). Stretched when I returned. Felt good.

On to watch the Jets play the Chargers for the second round of the AFC playoffs. Great game. They really showed up and played their hearts out and next week we’re off to Indiana to hopefully see the same showing against the Colts. Felt great.

Came back to our apartment, had a friend over for dinner. Drank some wine, ate some pasta, played some darts, pretended I knew karate. Wait, what?  Yeah, I really have no business doing any sort of karate and well, I broke my toe. At least I think it’s broken. It hurts and I can’t bend it, so even if it’s not medically broken, it certainly doesn’t work like a toe should work so I’m deeming it broken. How was I feeling at the end of Day 13? Physically, pretty crappy.  Emotionally, super psyched that the Jets won the game.  Mentally, really stupid for thinking I knew karate.  Darn show off.

Anyway, now I face the problem of what to do with the rest of this challenge? I can’t do yoga, I certainly can’t run. I can probably ride my bike but it’s suppose to rain all week. (Rain in So. Cal? What’s up with that?) It looks like it’s time to start building some upper body strength. I have a bunch of free weights here so I’ll see what I can get going with them.  I can still do “girl” push-ups and crunches will be fine.  Maybe by Day 30 I’ll be able to do a pull-up.  New goal! One pull up. (lol). I think it’ll be a nice change though I’m terribly distraught that I won’t be running, at least this week.  Anyone know how long it takes for a big toe to heal??

I just couldn’t bring myself to run this morning.  My body’s tired.  I feel like yesterday I spoke too soon about how good I feel.  My muscles are tight and my brain is less than psyched for this Challenge at the moment.  But I’m not giving up!  For today’s challenge, The All-Star and I hit the streets via bicycle for a 10 mile/2 hour cruise along the coast.  It was nice…and hilly on the way back so I definitely got my workout.  We returned at about 2pm and have been cleaning the apartment even since.  (It’s now 7:50).  If I wasn’t tired before, I certainly am now.  Just waiting for dinner to finish and it’ll be lounge city for the rest of the night.

Hopefully tomorrow my mojo will be back in gear and I’ll be ready to take on my morning run with strength, grace and, of course, a smile.

So what kind of inspiration can I share today.  Hmmm, okay.

“You must take personal responsibility. You cannot change the circumstances, the seasons, or the wind, but you can change yourself.” – Jim Rohn

Did you think I skipped day 10?  Nooo.  I skipped the run, and the blog, but I did do about an hour of pretty intense yoga last night.  Looooong stretching.  Negative: I got a headache during shavasana.  I think its because I did a headstand.  Bad yogi, that should not have happened.  Besides the one time I did yoga with The Kahuna on Day 4, my sessions during this challenge have been all self-led.  Though I have confidence in my yoga knowledge, I still think it would be better to follow an instructor.  Any DVD suggestions?  Anyway, I slept well.  I’ve been sleeping well every night actually.  Yesterday morning I woke up feeling like I had just slept a week.  A good feeling, let me tell you.

Other positives:

• My friends and family think I’m super cool
• I feel great
• I’m accomplishing things I didn’t think I could
• I always have something to do when there’s nothing to do (nothing to do, by the way, is a figment of our imagination, or lack there of)

Speaking of accomplishments, I added another .20 my run!  Total for today, 3.31.  Woohoo!  It wasn’t easy.  And I didn’t do it first thing in the morning which I think made it harder.  I woke up, did a few things, had some breakfast, did a few more things, and then took my run.  Once again, I got a right side cramp and was so much more out of breath than on my other runs.  I’m convinced the cramp is because I was still digesting solid food.  Not sure about the lung capacity.  Maybe the afternoon air quality is different, I don’t know.  But I did it, despite all the setbacks, and I feel good now that I’m resting.

I was going to take this down-time to complain about something that keeps happening to me this week.  I had this whole rant planned and I was gonna ask why and make accusations and all this other unnecessary diatribe.  But I’m not gonna do it and I’ll tell you why.  A patient of The Healing Sanctuary, who is always sharing with me the most fascinating information, made me some flashcards of the principles made in How to Win Friends and Influence People by Dale Carnegie.  I’m taking on one each week in hopes that I will be one day be the most popular person in the world.  Not really, but I’m definitely hoping to improve my social skills.  This week’s flashcard…Never condemn, criticize or complain.  So…no rant.  We’ll all better off.  I’ll leave you with that as today’s meditation.  I’m off to make sense of the boxes we STILL haven’t unpacked.  We are terrible movers.  Happy Friday!

…Miles that is.  A new personal best for me as of late and taking it to the next challenge level.  I was apprehensive at first but I mapped out MyRoute and hit the pavement running.  Today was a little different from other days.  It was raining this morning and I had an early commute so the a.m. run just wasn’t happening.  Fortunately, by the time I returned from work it was sunny and I was ready to keep up my successful pace.  After about a mile my side started to cramp, a first for this challenge.  I breathed it out for a few blocks and it felt fine for the rest of the distance.  My next obstacle was the wind.  As I rounded the final mile, it was really blowing and head-on, which was hard on my lungs, but stuck it out and finished my route!  Feeling tired but accomplished, I did my stretches and am now taking advantage of some alone time while The All-Star gets artsy. I think I’ll read.  Haven’t done that in a while.

After my run, I grabbed a piece of cheese.  This was not a good idea.  The fat made my stomach uneasy.  As much as I think I know about food, and I still make bad choices.  It happens, I’m weak and human.  Next time I’ll opt for some fruit, a healthier decision.  Self forgiven.

Total miles run since day one…12.63.  Not bad.  I’m excited to see what the end number will be.

Today’s inspiration was shared with me by my lovely Aunt Retta who has a heart of gold and the strength of steel…

“The woman came out of man’s rib, not from his feet to be walked on, not from his head to be superior, but from his side to be equal.  Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved.”

Thanks Aunt Retta, I love you!

Wait, what?  First Fats Do Not Make You Fat and now this.  Take it easy, I’ll explain.

Over the past 5 years I have made an honest effort to integrate more exercise and healthy eating habits into my health regime.  Lean meats, lots of veggies, healthy fats.  The transition didn’t happen over night but I can now proudly say that I lead a pretty healthy lifestyle.  The benefits of this lifestyle are totally worth the added efforts…lots of energy, a stronger immune system and of course, a maintainable healthy weight where I both look AND feel good.  So I’m healthy now, the work is done and I can eat bacon cheese burgers again, right?   Wrong.  Well, mostly wrong.  The truth is that regardless of weight, and how healthy a diet is, and all that exercise, saturated fats like those in a bacon cheese burger are no body’s friend, and they WILL have a negative effect on the body, regardless of how fit I think I am.  Sure a dietary splurge every once in a while isn’t going to set me back months, but believing that’s it’s okay to eat unhealthy because I am overall healthy is in itself, well…unhealthy, and could lead me down a dangerous path.

Have you ever met a thin person with high cholesterol, or diabetes?  You think, this person looks healthy, why are they struggling with this problem?  For many, adopting an “everything in moderation” or “I’m skinny so I can eat anything attitude” is more dangerous than you think.  It’s like my guys with the high metabolisms who figure they can eat all the fast-food they want because they aren’t “fat” yet.   Well, just because your body isn’t storing the fat visibly doesn’t mean your arteries are in the clear as well.  No pun intended.  And even though counting calories and watching carbs may keep you thin, it’s still more about the quality of the food that you put into your body that determines your health destiny.  I’m not saying one cheese burger now and again is going to send you to the ER, but you better be aware that just because you look healthy, doesn’t mean you are.  So the dangers I speak of are really the reasoning and bargaining that often go on before we eat something less than optimal.  Those who are dieting may be less likely to have this conversation with themselves.  They may come to the conclusion that a high-fat meal will negatively effect their weight goals and opt for a salad instead.  My concern is that those of us who are not as worried about our weight may not think to be as mindful of our health as well.

Eating foods high in saturated fats raise cholesterol levels and clog arteries.  Bottom line.  Studies are continuously being conducted to determine whether or not exercise can reverse the immediate effects but the results are still questionable.   Your best bet is to stay away from the bad-for-you-foods and save them for a very rainy day.

For more information about saturated fats and your daily limit, visit the American Heart Associate website.

Last night’s recharge meditation was just what I needed.  Today I feel great and this morning I woke up ready to start a new day and a new Challenge week.  Today’s fitness activity was a 2 1/2 mile run to the beach and back.  My new neighborhood is so cool.  I love jogging past all the little beach houses and the closer I get to the coast, the more beach bungalo-ey they get.  I finally feel like I’m living “California.”  It only took 2 years.

I’m continuing to feel really good on my runs.  No aches or cramps.  Feet feel good and breathing is steady.  I’m certainly getting the hang of it.  After my run today I did some good stretching, which I have been forgetting to do.  The pre-run stretch I remember, but when I return I’m all about getting out of my sweaty clothes and tracking MyRoute, that I forget to make sure my body is where it needs to be.  Note to self…REMEMBER TO STRETCH!  So I did today, and had some lunch and got myself ready for work.  On the car ride in, I felt soooo good.  It was a combination of adrenaline and euphoria.  I was calm, awake, and happy to be alive.  How’s that for a new drug?!

So enough about me.  I’d like to give a High Five shout out to The All-Star who’s starting his first day at The Art Institute today.  This is just another reason why we call him The All-Star.  He knows what he wants and how to go out and get it, and of course, can succeed in whatever he sets his mind to.

Way to go baby!  Totally proud of you, (and you’re super cute)!  And I’m a little jealous, I wanna take art classes.  Maybe I’ll find a pottery class.  I still have my tools from moons ago.  Ahh, the power of inspiration.

Speaking of inspiration… Here’s yesterday’s Zen calender meditation.  I think it was more appropriate for yesterday but we can continue to think about it today.  Aloha!

“Sit silently for ten years, then for ten more years, and then for another ten years.”