Category Archives: Life

Lemons to Lemonade

Today is a much needed quiet and rainy day, but it didn’t start out that way. It was raining, but it wasn’t intended to be quiet.

I woke up this morning feeling tired. I’ve felt this way for the past week or so. Work has been exceptionally stressful and I think my body has finally had enough. The rain doesn’t help, although we most definitely need it here in the Bay Area.

As I dragged myself to work this morning, I noticed Nature stirring around me. While I was wishing I was back in bed, the birds were chirping gleefully, the creek was running rapidly and there was a smell of freshness in the air. There was also the smell of a fire burning, most likely the stove of a nearby cafe, and it reminded me of raining days camping and the smell of damp wood campfire. This smell brought me to a place of joy and I felt a charge with which to begin my day!

When I arrived at my office, there were messages from patients cancelling their morning appointments. At first I was annoyed about the change in my schedule. I got up early, trudged to work, weathered the rain, and now I’m stuck with several free hours to myself. Oh the horror.

I made a few phone calls, sent a few emails, and then decided to meditate. I so often recommend the practice of meditation to my patients and so often deny myself the experience. Being a healer is like this sometimes. My mind is constantly at work thinking of ways to help others, but I can easily forget to take the time to care for myself. So I went into our larger treatment room and closed the door. (I brought the phone with me – I’ve still got to work). I took off my watch and my rain-dampened shoes, closed my eyes, and began to breathe. As always it took me a few moments to calm the breath and my mind. I worried that I shouldn’t have the music playing or should have turned the lights out but then I remembered that life always has distractions and the point of my practice is to find peace within the chaos, so I remained in my meditation and continued to become calm. My mind wandered as it always does, but the breath softened and became smooth. I remembered the smell of fire during my walk, and why it is so attractive to my senses. It brings me back to my love of the outdoors and Nature that gently forces me to abandon the daily routine and technological connections that I hold on to neurotically. When I’m on a camp site, there are no phones, no computers, I rarely even wear a watch. It’s just me and the wilderness. The breeze, the birds, the sounds of a nearby stream. I don’t think about the next episode of my favorite show, or my unanswered emails, or my facebook status. I am able to enter freely into the oneness that exists between myself and my world and let go of the shackles that bind me to my ego. I returned to my meditation. The same feeling had been accomplished. My breath softened further. I felt energy in my hands. My heart was free. Then the phone rang. It was a solicitor. It’s a work day after all. No worries. I gained what I needed.

I set back to work and began writing this blog entry, and then a patient who was supposed to be at 10:30 walked in a 11:40. How fortunate that another patient cancelled and my time became available to him. Also how fortunate that I was given the time to renew my senses and nourish my heart. I was now clear and renewed.

Sometimes it all works out!


I Love January 4th!


It’s my birthday!!!

I’m a huge fan of my birthday. No matter how old I get I’ll always think of it as a day to celebrate….and do nothing but have fun and be happy.

Even though….


I hope everyone had a happy and healthy New Year. I’m off to enjoy being ME!


Why I Do What I Do

Sometimes I wonder if I made the right decision doing what I do. I get tired or scared or slightly fed up with life. I worry that I won’t be able to do it for long or that I’m not good enough. I guess that’s natural. But then life reminds me that I love what I do and that I was led down this path and chose to follow it…not because I had to, but because I want to, and I’m good at it.  Everyday I help other people feel better. I listen to their problems. I smile and laugh with them. I look into their eyes and sympathize with their pain and celebrate their triumphs. It’s the most gratifying practice I’ve ever encountered. It still works me to the bone. I’m exhausted right now. But it’s a good feeling. I love what I do!


My 12 Hour Work Day

Yeah, it stinks. Well, it doesn’t stink. It’s actually pretty easy as far as working goes but I’d much rather be sitting relaxing somewhere. But who wouldn’t, right?

I really can’t complain. It’s quiet. I don’t have a boss. My patients are nice. And there’s soothing music playing. So what if I’m here for twelve hours. Yup. I really can’t complain.

But I am. Because I’m tired and I want to lay on my couch and do nothing but breathe. I guess I could do that here. Just sit back in my chair with my eyes closed and breathe.  How many times have you wanted to that on the job.  And now, no one can stop me!!

And the phone rang.

Oh well. 🙂


The Universe is Listening…

…so be careful what you ask for.

This is a phrase that has chimed in my ears again and again and since just about forever, I’ve been reminded that it’s true.

Of course nothing is ever really provided the way I expect it to be and sometimes I forget this. You see, there really is no filter “out there” so sometimes  your wishes don’t come in pretty wrapped boxes. No, the Universe can be tricky and it takes an optimist to accept everything it hands you in a positive light.

I don’t want to get too much into the details but I’ve recently been faced with a bit of a challenge in regards to my business. It’s definitely not a bad thing. It’s a good thing actually but it does require a few major changes and at a pretty drastic rate but I’m doing my best to tackle it one day at a time. I can only really say that I got what I asked for.  So now I’m busting my little butt and it’s stressful and a little scary but it’s exciting and rewarding all at the same time. Yup.  Sounds like the Universe to me. Nothing comes easy. So again, be careful what you ask for, because you’re libel to get it, and perhaps not how you were expecting.